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I don't know what made him stick around this long, when we first got together I was out of countrol, my emotions ran confused and my life was becoming a blur....my days seemed shorter while my nights grew longer...I was intollerable and didn't think anyone could truly understand me...but now he picked up the pieces of my heart that I had thrown away a long time ago and somehow got them to stick back together again. The damages that were done to me for years, plus the damages I had caused within myself seem to have gone away little by little....now almost 6mths later, everyday gets a little better and now my heart is not so bitter. I don't fake my smiles anymore and don't take my life or my loved ones for granted. The realization that life is what you make it and that the beauty of life is that it's your own story book, you have control and the power to create the plots and revise the ending any time you want.......

So kids.....even though bad things may have happened to you in your past, don't dwell on it for too long, (LIFE DOESN'T WAIT FOR YOU TO LIVE IT) you still own the power to ensure a great future....create the happiness that was once taken away from you and start a new chapter in your life with a posetive outlook and become stronger and wiser within. Love you!!!

~MARI~

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XOXOXOXOX

~Marilynn~

I've been getting my music fix lately by listening to LILY ALLEN, KATY PERRY, ENUF/DJ CALABRIA, ALICIA KEYS, KANYE WEST, JAY-Z (AMERICAN GANGSTER), LIL WAYNE & GARDEN STATE SOUNDTRACK......All these forces brought together in my mind have me flying off into the musical land in which my heart and soul becomes a solid work of art.....endless satisfaction of the imperfected world from which we reside :)

 

XOXOXOXOX!!!!

~Marilynn~

It's a little Stalker Status, but it's still a good song in my book :)

I know, you guys probably don't realize I have such a wide variety of taste in music....but this music is what I grew up to and makes everything in the world beautiful again :)

    My Friday was spent pretty good talking to my patients and thinking about the future...I'm not sure where this road of mine will go, but I'm pretty sure it's gonna be GREAT!!! I have so much running through my mind, I have so much I want to do, but sometimes I feel like there is no opportunity to go after the dreams, it's a struggle to try to get your foot in the door trying to do what I'm so passionate about....I love music, I love entertaining, I love people....but because of what my family wanted to to accomplish, I had to ditch going to college for media and settle for a more "stable career", don't get me wrong, I love what I do mainly cause I feel i'm making a difference by helping people and learning from them everyday as well, my older patients have amazing stories and a brilliant way of looking at life, but there is also this void in myself for not being able to persue and contribute to my passion and dreams. I don't want to be older & dissapointed with my life because I know I'm suppose to do more...I've always had this aura about me that draws people in socially, I'm a social butterfly....oh well, I'll have to think of new strategies in the mean time....thanks for taking the time out to step into my life....I'll post on monday to let you know how my weekend went :)

    CAN'T WAIT TO SEE GYM CLASS HEROES AND FALL OUT BOY THURSDAY!!!!

First of all, I would like to take this moment to sit back and breathe....inhale......exhale.... Okay, now I'm good to go :) A lot has been accomplished this year and I'm finally realizing this...I stopped slacking off, cut down on the partying and got it together so that I can finish persueing things to fullfill my life with what I've been longing for clearly without the cloudiness weighing over me. It felt like it went by so fast, but the one thing I forgot to do was appreciate it along the way until I got some advise to slow it down, enjoy the opportunities and the people around me...thanks MOM, even though your miles away, you still have that motherly touch that is always appreciated and felt!!! Now I can taste how sweet a kiss can be and how fun it is to enjoy family....I take the time out now to make sure I visit my dad every Sunday and to sit and character read with my daughter so that she can find the fun in reading. I was so caught up in helping everyone with their problems, that I forgot to focus on myself and realizing that I had problems of my own....I like to think I keep things chilled and layed back in my life...this concludes a piece of my thoughts for the day.

My life has truly been a bitter sweet symphony.......more to come....